47. Fears in Discernment

DISCERNMENT UPDATE!!

So about 2 months ago I went to a discernment retreat and one of the Sisters giving a presentation asked a question."What is it that you're afraid of; what is holding you back?" At the time I thought I was fearless. "Nothing is holding me back; I've given it all to God and I'm not afraid of a religious vocation!"

This evening I had one of those wonderful times in Adoration when you just cry and let Jesus hear everything that you perceive to be wrong with your life. Afterwards, as I was driving around, He told me that I'm not really fearless. I finally realized that I am afraid - and not only afraid, DEATHLY AFRAID - of this waiting period that the Sisters of Life have me on. I'm afraid that God is using that to tell me that I'm not supposed to be a Sister, and that I should just give up. This hit me like a brick - and out of the blue, I must say!

I know that God doesn't create or cause fear of this type (Fear of the Lord, yes. But this kind, no), so I can tell that this fear is irrational and of the Enemy.

Not only is God awesome, but He uses people to prove it!

Less than 2 hours after I got home, I got a text message from my Spiritual Director (I must say, he's awesome!) reminding me that tomorrow after Mass there will be a presentation on the Immaculate Conception given by 2 Sisters from downstate. He had told me about this order at my last meeting with him, and I sort of put them in the back of my mind, as I am really focused and intent on entering with Sisters of Life. But these sisters work in evangelization, one thing that I really love, and I took the time this evening to check out their website. They look awesome! The order is the Parish Visitors of Mary Immaculate, found HERE

And not only that, but Father had forgotten to mention before that the Mother Superior would be coming to this presentation! :D How awesome can this be!?

My prayer is that after talking with them tomorrow I will have a clear sense of if I should pursue this order or not. Please pray for me. I'll update this after I come home tomorrow evening.

Thank you and God bless!!

~SSWW (Kylie)

46. My 40 Days Experience Thus Far

So far so good! Countless hours praying at our local Planned Parenthood in solidarity with Christians and non-Christians alike has produced awesome results thus far! We believe that we have had at least one life saved, praise God!

The downfall though: the pro-choice people who rally across the street. Really? What's your cause? 40 Days for Death?

Their signs are sickening. "I support women's healthcare." "I <3 PP" "40 years legal (so why do I still have to do this???) I'm almost certain I saw Jezebel holding a sign over there. They waved at people as they honked or sent a thumbs-up their way, and they cheered and clapped. Whoopie. Killing babies. Honk if you love to kill babies. What even?!?

And ohmygosh you'd never believe the profanities yelled out of passing cars! How horrendous! And the most saddening is the mothers/fathers who either wave to the pro-death people, or those that flip us pro-lifers the bird - WITH THEIR KID IN THE CAR! Wow. Can't get much worse than that.

I wish to tell you all about an enthralling interaction I had today with a photographer. A man with a short grey beard rode towards Planned Parenthood from downtown on a bicycle laden with three packs. After photographing (at some length, I would say,) the pro-choicers proudly holding their signs across the street, he rode over to our side of the street. To my left, in between the lane and sidewalk, be began to "discreetly" (actually, very obviously) snap pictures of me holding the "Abortion Hurts Women" sign. I called out to him. "Excuse me, for what cause are these pictures?" He made a motion with his hands to indicate that he couldn't hear me and then mouthed 'traffic." I yelled so he could hear my, "Then come here!" and motioned for him to step closer to the curb. I repeated, "For what cause are you taking pictures of me?" He gave me the most 'fake-innocent, I have no idea what you're talking about' face. I repeated the question, "What are these going to be used for?" I was getting irritated, to say the least. "Documentary," he finally said. I wasn't satisfied with that answer and I wasn't finished yet. "Well why don't you come up and introduce yourself before trying to snap pictures of me?!" I had had it. I dismissed him with a simple "Have a good day. God bless you." He rode off on his bike and didn't say another word to me. I can't wait to see where those pictures show up... Oh boy...

Anyway, other than that, 40 Days has been amazingly inspiring. I have met so many people through this campaign in the first 3 weeks that I look up to and am inspired by. From the young atheist boy who asked the first week if he could come and hold his sign with us, even though he didn't believe in God, to a devout, strong Christian man who has shown me how to REALLY stand up for life. These people have inspired me so much to never back down in this fight, and to pray - really fervently pray - for an end to abortion.

Please. If there is a 40 Days For Life vigil location near you, please seriously consider spending some time there praying and advocating for an end to abortion. This is THE MOST important cause in the world today. Our brothers and sisters - the most innocent and helpless of these! - are being murdered simply for BEING. This needs to end, and the only way to end it is to pray, increase awareness, and be active in the fight against this evil. www.40daysforlife.com

Join me in standing up for the rights of unborn children.

God bless you.

~SheSpeaksWithWisdom

45. REQUESTSSSSSSS

YOU GUYS. I LOVE REQUESTS.

VIDEO REQUESTS... BLOG REQUESTS... PLEEEEASE.

Anything. I'm begging you. I want sooo badly to make more videos, and make them more regularly, but I have NO CLUE what to make them on! YOU guys are the ones with the ideas! Please, share some of them!

I make these videos/posts for you guys. I make them to educate and to inspire and to evangelize. I need to know what you guys want to see/hear, and what you need to learn more about. What do you think is lacking in the world now? What do you think most Catholics (or non-Catholics, even!) are missing? What can I do to help them?

Help me help YOU!

Anyway, here is my latest VIDEO, given to me, you guessed it, BY REQUEST PRAISE GOD!!!!!

Thanks for dealing with that. LOL

God bless!!!

~SheSpeaksWithWisdom (Kylie)